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Shadowlands, Preface and Part 1
Disclaimer: While I am a prolific reader of all sorts of material, I have not read everything ever written. As such, I am sure there will be some similarities to other works in the world and that is purely coincidental. All the material I write and share here came directly from my brain and has…
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Something Different
I decided to do something different for a while. I have been working on a couple stories lately – one a novel and one a short story still in development. Sometimes, it feels like I have these stories burning in my bones and I just need to get them out. But I can only write…
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To my Gretchen, the best puppy dragon
My beautiful pup crossed the rainbow bridge today. She was the best pup I could have ever asked for. She was a rescue, but honestly I think she rescued us. She had a billion names. Gretchen. Gretchers. McDudes. Pubble bubbles. Pupper rupps. Puppy dragon. Rubble butts. And more. She had been slowing down and last…
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Desolation and the Keening of Loss
Often, I find myself coming back to the heavier, deeper, darker emotions. Sadness, sorrow, melancholy, devastation…loss. I have been wrestling with these a lot lately and today in my Morning Pages1 practice, I processed a bit more about what draws me to these themes. Life has not always been kind, nor has it worked out…
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Silence Among the Ruins
There are times in my life when I crave the second noun form of silence – “absence of sound or noise: stillness.”1 This world is loud and seems to have only gotten louder still in recent years. I find my heart and body and soul aching for silence and stillness, especially as a mom of…
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Living Loss
I recently wrote a paper on grief and the idea of “living loss,” where the loss is not in a physical death of a person, but of a persistent, permanent loss of something or someone important. This type of grief can crush a person. Of this, I know full well. The last two months have…
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Who Do You Think You Are?
I have been mulling over these question lately, with all of the recent changes in my life: Who do I think I am? Who do I want to be? How do I become that person? It is sometimes hard to keep the proper perspective of who I am in the midst of so much pain,…
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Rise Again
Super short post today… This song is on repeat. NEEDTOBREATHE is one of my favorite bands. Deep breath…I’m going to rise again.
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The Bottom
“When you think you’ve hit the bottom, and the bottom gives way…” Steven Curtis Chapman I thought I hit the bottom many times in my life and many, many times in the past 5 years. Every time it felt like *that* was all the loss I could hold, I was handed another loss and the…
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Acceptance
Before my amputation in 2023, I went away by myself for two weeks to try to catch my breath and take a self-inventory of my life. I found that I was not in a place of acceptance. Not deeply. Sure I had accepted that I was hurt, that my hand did not work, that the…
Jewels from the Dark 